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Wednesday, March 07, 2007

Wed, 07 Mar 2007 20:13:32 GMT

ah xiao how ridiculous are you ????? ... hahaahhaa i have just ruined my luck .. how lucky i am to be able to have my gf .. and i am now ruining the only luck that i have ... so fucking funny !!! ... may be i don't really deserve my luck.....

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

Wed, 07 Mar 2007 18:05:13 GMT

i know i have hurt you ..i know that was unforgivable mistake ..may be you will never forgive me again.. but please don't doubt my love on you .. i love on you is real.. and everlasting .. i am sorry...........

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

Wed, 07 Mar 2007 13:33:15 GMT

i really want to be with you forever .. honey..i love you..

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

Wed, 07 Mar 2007 12:42:43 GMT

life is just not the same without you honey.. i need you back in my life .. i am sorry for everything .. i made a huge mistake ..i made the worse mistake in my life ...i am sorry and sad ..

please don't think about leaving me ..i need you .. i cann't live without you.. and please believe that i love you ..i love you so much.. i do love you.. honey .. i love you...

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

Wed, 07 Mar 2007 11:43:34 GMT

The first time i have felt the pain of heart .. the bleeding heart .. my heart is still bleeding for my stupid attempt ...
i deserve the pain ..but not my honey ...she shouldn't suffer it ....i am sorry for everything ..i am sorry .BUT honey i really reallly love you....... i love you so much .. i cann't afford to lose you .. i cann't live without you ..i need you...

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

Wed, 07 Mar 2007 11:32:16 GMT

i really love you ... never ment to hurt you .... never.... never ..... never ... i am really a bad man who doesn't deserve yourlove .. .. i have hurt you again and again and again... i don't worth your forgiveness.. but i really really hope there is still a chance for me ... I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH HONEY .... I REALLY REALLY LOVE YOU SO MUCH...
i cann't live without you .. i really cann't live without you ... i cann't afford to lose you ..i cann't i cann't afford to lose you .. i need you .i need you . I NEED YOU IN MY LIFE.......I made a huge HUGE MISTAKE ...i am sorry...never ment to hurt you .. i am so sorry ...sorry..sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry.. i am really sorry ..

Friday, January 12, 2007

Fri, 12 Jan 2007 20:39:52 GMT

A psychology test. How trusty can it be? From my personal point of view , it is just a test set for a particular group,there is no right or wrong interpretation from that .However ,most people would agree that it indeed has certain reliability.I was asked a couples of tests ,which has to do with my personality .I did pay a real great attention to the test, for i wanted to get the best of it . But the more i tried to pick the options up , the more complicated it become . i have decided carefully of what to choose , but it turned out to be wrong answers .
Why didn't i go as the heart wanted me to go. I shouldn't have decided a long time .Why did i hestitate to choose the first instinct ? What make me to behave like that ? i have just found out the answer,by thinking about it like 4 hrs. The answer to that hestitation is that i am aware of sth and i want it to be the best of it. The awarness is caused by a bunch of questions about the tests. I wondered what kind of meaning is encoded ,and how could it related to me .The wondering has compeletely confused me . It against me to choose from my first instinct.Maybe it is also part of the test for testing how determined my mind is. It made my mind to weaken the strength of determination , for i was so care about the test . I was afraid that it would turn out to be all negative.I shouldn't have care about the link between the psychology test and me so much , for i was so sure that i would never get the meanings and interpretations of it , no matter how hard i tried. As a result , i believed my second thought .

On the other hand , how many of the psychologists can guarantee that the test is said to be 100% true and foreshadowed our personality. It might be true to a particular group of people including me .But what about for others who are willing and eager to change , have undecidedly chosen the given options. Then, i guess the outcome wouldn't be the same .

If the psychology test is to be true or If the first instinct has to be the soul of the psychology test .
Can i repick my first instinct ?

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Wed, 10 Jan 2007 17:35:44 GMT

I have just realized that learning seriously is indeed an interesting thing .These days, i have been learning Physics and Maths very conscientiously and then i have found out that i didn't know any of these stuff before .

I wonder how I passed my 9th and 10th standard exam without knowing anything. I am just like learning brand new subjects with a very limited time. I have to understand everything within 6 months .Every candidate takes at least one year to prepare for the exam. “Not to mention they all are fresher”. Where was I while they were fighting for their future? I was just wasting my time. I have heard about the old proverb “Time and tide waits for no man” since I was young. I just didn’t get it. I was proud for what I was doing. Perhaps, my sis was right. I have been told that i am a “one-way guy”. “I am the most stubborn guy in the world, I just believe in what I think was right”. Indeed, I had no complaint about that, for I was totally a self-righteous person. I should have taken my life seriously.

Anyway ,I really find it interesting to deal with my lessons although it is a bit tough .It is really challenging, especially when i am going to sit the exam with some so-called<the whole Myanmar> and expecting to get great scores and win them. I ought to put all my effort into my lessons since so-called guys will also be applying for colleges at the same time with me. It would be so competitive. I have to do my best. Frankly, i have never studied like the way I am studying before. I think I am gonna like studying. Don't know why .Maybe, because of motivations. A lot of motivations have been bushing me. Why didn’t anything “anything” motivate me, when I was young? i have just realized that i wasn't ambitious . i didn't even have a tiny goal . I am not blaming anyone. I am the one to blame.

Motivation will not motivate me unless i has a single goal, no matter how small the dream is. Maybe,i become to aware of my future . Maybe , i am gradually changing. Maybe , i become to take seriously to life .May be because of the consequence of the past .I have set up a goal full of fantasy .The dream is not only leading me to the right path but also making me to be more persistent. With the aid of motivation that the dream has created, my mind become more resolute. All in all, the distance between the fantasy and reality will be just only one step away.

Friday, December 08, 2006

Fri, 08 Dec 2006 14:45:37 GMT

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i love you very much ah hui

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